ok, sounds like this is way beyond what i imagine..

thanks for allowing me to spam ur fb, ur gmail, ur hotmail, ur msn and lastly spamming on my own blog on ur birthday? hmm... hehehe.. i guess if i spam ur phone too.. then u will really end up in hos.. but since u are still alive.. that means i did quite a good job huh?

i FINISH my homeschool!!! 5 yrs of sweat, joy, pain, sadness, seeing politics flying all over the place, spiritual warfares, disagreements, tortures, unfairness, happy moments, the cherished times, the unforgettable moments, the hurtful moments.. everything la.. is all GONE and VANISHED!

many ppl say graduation is a big thing.. though i really dunno y but i am just happy to leave this place and move on.. not even looking forward to awards night.. no joy within when the word is being spoken.. i guess coz my heart and mind has a negative thought or even a wanting to just leave and carry on thought and not remembering the 5 yrs of experience in there.. i really dunno.. i even told my mom, it is ok not to turn up.. nothing to enjoy abt it.. nothing fun to see too.. no excitement on it.. haih..

SAT is just around the corner.. something which i really dunno what kind of results will it turn out to be.. the vocab is a killer.. the maths is still a survivor for me..

the activities lined up for Nov and Dec is hectic.. there goes the time where second home seems to be first and the first home seems to be second.. i always find the joy and the excitement to go to my second home.. i guess coz that's where i really find the peace of God.. especially since it is God's house.. His dwelling place..

what is gng to happen next yr is a great mystery which am afraid to still put in the key to turn the knob to discover the life beyond what is currently gng through.. the challenges is gng to be greater.. a whole new experience that some don't have the financial support to go through.. to some is just another road to take which is forced by parents.. some which are wanting to persue some great ambition in the future..

for me, it is just another step of road which i got to take for God to mould me in.. the five yrs that have passed are just the beginning of a tall ladder.. the 3 months of survival away from the normal lifestyle was the start of what reality would be.. what will really happen in the real world.. plus a so far (counting from Jan till now) 10 month course with a friend of being a punching bag has allowed me to be prepared a little further of what reality really is gng to be like.. really thank u all for contributing to showing me what life is.. i guess all these will really come useful when i start to step into the working life..

besides all these, lots more are in the head of a young chiku.. there's a reason of y all these must be compressed to the small little brains which are still slowly growing.. hmm.. crazy + exciting life = MY LIFE! hehe..

still 3 more to tackle.. haih.. and time is running out!! all i have left is 8 days!!

God, You said You will hear our earnest prayers.. God, You know those really earnest prayers of mine.. You said You will answer them in Your time.. how much longer must one suffer only then You will lift off that burden from us?

all is needed is to hear that calling from You to either stay or to move on.. it is not an easy task to stay especially with the current situation in the real world.. but move to where? will it be secure to move on?? God, pls help Lord!! pls give us the strength to cont doing ur work.. being the salt and light for You is really tough.. help us not to give up Lord.. haih..

YOu created us for a purpose.. You said that You will not test us to the extend that You know we cannot bare.. so does this mean that we still can tahan it? does this mean that we still got to stand the nonsense of those ppl? how far more will this go?

haih.. help us Lord!!