this sounds wrong.. like as if Jesus is gng to go on the cross again.. ok, nvm..

but it is FINISHED!!! WOOOHHOOOOOO!!!

this is worst than cloud 9 type..

sure also got sad moments la.. left friends behind that i knew since 2005.. long time way back.. still rmbed being called in to either see supervisor or even the office manager for my dirty tricks last time.. more like my rebellious ways last time.. wan to know how obedient kid i was last time? u guys will freaked out if u know! haha..

time to move on.. but it is like am not ready to take the next step.. don't feel like stepping up on the next level.. the comfort zone is still here.. haih.. just hope all will be alright..

i know that many complains have arised of what i plan to do.. but should i because of that step down and rethink or should i just move on acting those as a go in one ear go out another thingy? haih.. God!! this is crazy!

19 more days till disaster comes and i have not even studied half of what i am supposed to! SMART ME!! arrghhh!!

am happy to meet u Christine ystrdy.. hope to see u more often..

thanks owner n aunty for those crazy stuff ystrdy.. really made me cheer up.. thanks owner especially for agreeing to do that for me.. i know it is a difficult task.. but i can only think of u who is able and stern enough to get this through.. i really don't wan to see this person in this way anymore.. is like this person is being juggled from one to another but all also like not really doing anything.. it is time for u to action it out! heheh.. really hope it will work la.. thanks for the prayers too.. haih..

looking very much forward to this sat.. and next sat..

Christmas is COMING!!!!!!

awards night is this THURS and it is FREEDOM from one officially! hahaha..

ok, sounds like this is way beyond what i imagine..

thanks for allowing me to spam ur fb, ur gmail, ur hotmail, ur msn and lastly spamming on my own blog on ur birthday? hmm... hehehe.. i guess if i spam ur phone too.. then u will really end up in hos.. but since u are still alive.. that means i did quite a good job huh?

i FINISH my homeschool!!! 5 yrs of sweat, joy, pain, sadness, seeing politics flying all over the place, spiritual warfares, disagreements, tortures, unfairness, happy moments, the cherished times, the unforgettable moments, the hurtful moments.. everything la.. is all GONE and VANISHED!

many ppl say graduation is a big thing.. though i really dunno y but i am just happy to leave this place and move on.. not even looking forward to awards night.. no joy within when the word is being spoken.. i guess coz my heart and mind has a negative thought or even a wanting to just leave and carry on thought and not remembering the 5 yrs of experience in there.. i really dunno.. i even told my mom, it is ok not to turn up.. nothing to enjoy abt it.. nothing fun to see too.. no excitement on it.. haih..

SAT is just around the corner.. something which i really dunno what kind of results will it turn out to be.. the vocab is a killer.. the maths is still a survivor for me..

the activities lined up for Nov and Dec is hectic.. there goes the time where second home seems to be first and the first home seems to be second.. i always find the joy and the excitement to go to my second home.. i guess coz that's where i really find the peace of God.. especially since it is God's house.. His dwelling place..

what is gng to happen next yr is a great mystery which am afraid to still put in the key to turn the knob to discover the life beyond what is currently gng through.. the challenges is gng to be greater.. a whole new experience that some don't have the financial support to go through.. to some is just another road to take which is forced by parents.. some which are wanting to persue some great ambition in the future..

for me, it is just another step of road which i got to take for God to mould me in.. the five yrs that have passed are just the beginning of a tall ladder.. the 3 months of survival away from the normal lifestyle was the start of what reality would be.. what will really happen in the real world.. plus a so far (counting from Jan till now) 10 month course with a friend of being a punching bag has allowed me to be prepared a little further of what reality really is gng to be like.. really thank u all for contributing to showing me what life is.. i guess all these will really come useful when i start to step into the working life..

besides all these, lots more are in the head of a young chiku.. there's a reason of y all these must be compressed to the small little brains which are still slowly growing.. hmm.. crazy + exciting life = MY LIFE! hehe..